Hello everyone! Sorry I’ve been MIA for a while—it was not just a beautiful Memorial Day weekend, but it was also my birthday. With all of the celebrating and getting back into my daily routine, I haven’t had a chance to tell you all the final results of the 4-weeks to fit challenge.
When the challenge began, the goal was to drop another size and look more toned. I began the challenge on April 21 at a size 4-6 and as of May 21 I am sitting comfortably at a size 2-4…mission accomplished!
In just 30 days, I also did something that I never thought I would do—I got the number on the scale out of my head. That was probably the biggest weight that I have ever dropped. I decided that I would rather look and feel great than weigh a certain amount. Would I like the scale to read a different number? Sure. But I know that I’ve built a lot of muscle and so the weight that I’m seeing is not indicative of my progress. The fact that I’m actually writing that…and meaning it…speaks volumes to how far I’ve come.
I’ve struggled with weight my whole life and the one time I had gotten “skinny” I was only focused on the scale and not on being toned. At that time, I got down to 130-135 lbs but in only focusing on the number, my body didn’t really change. Last week, I reached into my skinny bin (a storage bin of clothes that I had been saving for whenever I lost weight again)—and most of the clothes were too big. Here I was trying on clothes that I thought would be too small—and it was the opposite. To say I was shocked would be an understatement. With the flare-ups that occur due to my unknown stomach problems, I sometimes don’t see the progress that I’m making when I look in the mirror. However, in looking at pictures I can tell that I’m a shadow of the girl that I was when I first started this journey.
I started my weight loss journey at a size 12-14…70+ lbs and almost two years ago. Today, I am literally the smallest that I have ever been…and maybe the happiest. I can honestly say that it’s been over 15 years since I was truly happy with mostly every aspect of my life but this challenge taught me a lot about myself and the person that I want to be. Seems when you feel good about yourself everything else falls in line.
The challenge may be over but my journey will continue on. This past weekend I wanted to enjoy my birthday and allow myself some of the things that I had been depriving myself over the last month. I ate a lot of ice cream and had some very delicious (but not completely fattening) foods this weekend. However I didn’t fall off the wagon and I made sure to keep myself accountable, even squeezing in a workout over the weekend in the midst of the birthday fun. I felt no guilt about the things I was indulging in and enjoyed every spoon of the ice cream I had been waiting for. With all good things there must be a bad–and for me it was my stomach that decided to resume it’s normal tricks. It was not very happy with me as a result of all of the outside foods and as a result my workout regimen (and sleep) this week has been significantly impacted. While I was able to workout on Wednesday, it was not at full strength. I hope to get back into my regular intense regimen this weekend or by Monday, the very latest.
It does frustrate and upset me that this happens with my stomach and that I can’t just go back to my normal diet and exercise routines without these interruptions. However, I know that the stomach problems I face will always be there and sitting around feeling sorry for myself won’t change them–they will only create other problems (and weight gain) instead. So rather than getting down on myself, I am trying to keep my head up and do as much as I can…despite the limitations my body wants to present.
You don’t really know how strong you are until you conquer your greatest obstacle. Always remember that nothing worth having comes easy.
Stay strong and stay in the fight!