This too shall pass…


Well…I’m back! I know it’s been a little while since I last blogged but I needed some time to regroup. Since Christmas I’ve had a lot of unnecessary stress at my job and it’s really been effecting my health. My stomach is the worst that it’s been in years…I haven’t slept very well…my skin keeps breaking out…I’m just a mess. My body has gotten very rundown and as a result I currently am getting over a bad cold. Between the stress and the horrible northeast winter, my workouts really haven’t been consistent. I completed the #Whole30 diet but due to everything going on, it was a failed experiment. Truthfully my life right now just isn’t conducive to such a strict diet with the stomach issues that I have. Once things settle down, I will have to give it another try.

I’ve spent the last few months doing the best thing that I could possibly think of – I’ve focused on the things that make me happiest. I’ve spent time doing things that I enjoy and seeing people who bring me joy. It’s been great balancing out my life and it’s allowed me to forget about the stress, if even just for a moment.

Unfortunately, my fitness has really taken a backseat. My workouts have been sporadic, at best. Between my stomach acting up and the sheer exhaustion from not sleeping well, I just haven’t had the energy or motivation to workout. Some people say they use stress to push them. Well, right before I got sick with this horrible cold I promised myself I would do just that. Truthfully, I feel like I’ve undone a lot of my hard work…and I want it to stop. Now with my stomach being very blown up, it’s a bit hard to get an accurate weight and size but nonetheless I’m not happy with myself these days. I’m not so sure that working out will necessarily change anything physically until I can get rid of the stress…but it will make me feel better mentally.

I recently discovered this fabulous app from


It allows you to select workout programs based on your individual goal. Whether you want to tone up or become the next Arnold Schwarzenegger, they have a plan for you. Last year I followed a diet and workout regimen that mimicked that of a figure competitor. Well….this app has several programs geared towards just that! I will be starting one of the plans this week and incorporating it into my 4-weeks to fit challenge, which is coming in about 2 weeks! I also have to get back into doing cardio. Any workouts that I’ve done this winter have centered around lifting. I struggle with running so much due to my breathing troubles that it’s become a chore for me….but with summer rapidly approaching it must be done. While I do prefer lifting (and feeling bad ass), if I want to look good on the beach….cardio has to happen too.

I’ve gone through much worse situations than this in my life and I know that there’s light at the end of the tunnel. It’s going to be an uphill battle but I will try my best to keep my head up and use the stress as motivation rather than letting it keep me down. If you are facing a similar situation or if you are struggling in another way, remember this too shall pass. After all, nothing worth having comes easy. Work hard, lift heavy, and NEVER GIVE UP!

Stay strong & stay in the fight!



“Tell your mind to get out of your body’s way!”


No matter how motivated and dedicated you are, nothing knocks you off track faster than getting hurt or sick. You take the time to rest your body and in the process your diet (and exercise) routines get destroyed.

I am currently trying to get over this. I spent a week fighting a nasty head cold, which came after a week of a stomach flare-up. The stomach flare-ups keep happening and it looks like that my mostly clean eating diet is going to have to get a lot more strict. I’m also noticing that my energy levels aren’t what they should be lately, especially after a long day at work. Truth be told though, while I have worked out throughout the summer, my workouts haven’t been as hard or consistent since I hurt my shoulder back in June.

I’ve gotten to the point where if I take more than one day off at the gym, I don’t know what to do with myself. The issue that I face is with my own mindset–I take the motto “go hard or go home” very seriously and if I can’t give 100% I feel like there’s no point. I know I shouldn’t think that way and that any workout beats doing nothing…but I feel like it’s a waste of energy and time to half-ass it. Unfortunately sometimes as much as you want to push yourself, you have to also know your limits. I’m learning lessons the hard way.

I’ve tried more than once to jump back into my exercise regimen but my shoulders want no part of the arms-day that I’m used to. As a result, I either do half the workout that I’m used to or else push it to the point where I’m out of commission for a week or more. I’m losing muscle mass and I don’t like it – but as of right now there’s not too much I can do about it. My running has also suffered as a result of my inconsistency. I went from easily running a 5K to struggling with one mile. Ever since I had my fainting episode over the summer, I’ve been scared to really try. I’m always worried it may happen again and so I don’t push it anymore.

Some days I really want to workout–and then my body gives out. More often than not, I realize I am standing in my own way. That seems so silly after all I’ve gone through to get here–why stop now? Why let this small setback debilitate my progress and cause a bigger setback? I don’t know the answer to this…yet. The mind really is the most powerful tool in this process–and once you stop letting negativity and self-doubt rule your life, sky’s the limit.

I’ve decided enough is enough. I feel gross and not myself…and I don’t like it. I may not be able to give it 100% but I can give it my all. I’ve been to the gym several times over the last couple of weeks but I’m not consistent and that needs to stop. I know part of my happiness comes from how I feel after a good workout. I vow to get myself back on track…no matter what.

The first step to getting me back on track is training for my very first timed 5K! I signed up for the Biggest Loser RunWalk, which takes place November 2 at 6 Flags. One of my goals this year was to run my first real race so I know being able to finish that 5K will definitely put me back on track…and keep me there for the long, cold winter months to come. I can’t really speak enough about how The Biggest Loser has really changed my life and inspired me on this journey so I am really excited to have my first race be with them. After several months of inconsistency I will have to work to get my lungs back in shape. I will be documenting my training, beginning on Monday, so as to keep me accountable and maybe help some of you who have aspirations of running but may also have similar struggles.

Life is full of obstacles but it’s how we face them that shapes who we are. Dolvett Quince, trainer on the Biggest Loser, said it best when he told his team “tell your mind to get out of your body’s way!” Deep down I know that I am much happier when I work out and I feel better overall. While I may have let a lot of obstacles get in my head and stand in my way, I don’t want all of my hard work to go to waste. I know that I’m not the same girl that I was when I began this journey and I’m much stronger than I’ve ever been. I will conquer these issues and I will set a PR at this upcoming race.

We are own worst enemy sometimes but as crazy as life gets or as many challenges as you may face, always remember that nothing worth having comes easy.


Stay strong & stay in the fight!